Breaking The Bondage: An Overcomer…

crossroadsI was at a crossroads, overcoming or full on implosion, letting everything I had worked for consume me. The clock was ticking and only I could make that choice. How could I have been so selfish to think I had really been helping others including my own family? I was a short circuited mess, a ticking time bomb waiting to go off. Something was really not right with this picture.

Right away I went into my prayer closet to ask God what needed to change in me to thrive and succeed the way I truly desired to. Certainly I would be required to walk in a higher measure of faith. Our society teaches us that we must work hard to have the life we want and that God only helps those that help themselves. Though we are called to serve through our work and our efforts, it is not by our own strength and efforts that we excel, but in the hands of our Lord, the very one who breathed and gave us life.

The first thing to change was my heart, softened, humbled, and humiliated. I didn’t condone myself with why. I didn’t even want to go back and revisit the past down memory lane. If I was going to do this right, it was going to be a clean break and only facing forward. It was time for me to move forward with me life, but this time remaining on track, being consistent, and obedient in listening to what God was sharing with me and for me. He knew best, I certainly didn’t, my spiraled out of control life was evident proof of this.

The second thing I did was take a look at my schedule. Sure, originally I had kept my work hours under 20 a week originally; that having been before 2 additional companies were added, 1 of them my husband’s business. I thought the hours could be maintained and schedulejuggled with a virtual assistant we are blessed to have on team along with all the skills and tools I had acquired through previous business seminars and trainings. What should have been 20 hours quickly became on average a 10-7 shift; as a home business owner, this is way too many. If I had been working full time, 20-25 hours max on average would have been all I needed, but I was beyond that. I sat down with my husband who is the head of all of our employment; yes he oversees and shepherds, me, his wife! We agreed that I needed to scale my hours back for the sake of caring for myself, for my roles as wife and mother, and also in managing our home. It was time to go back to a balanced schedule. My hours were cut more than half.

Morning time has always remained a time with the Lord followed by having family time with hubby and our daughter. My new schedule, however, would mean working a couple of hours in the morning, wrapping up by early afternoon, and having 5-7 hours free time to spend with family, maintaining, running errands, or whatever it needed to be allocated for prior to returning to the office for evening appointments.

Though my new schedule has required me to have immense faith and trust in the Lord, I have faithfelt the stress melt off of me. My husband has mentioned multiple occasions that I am more relaxed, laid back, and seem to be enjoying their company more. I feel better and my health is day by day getting back on track. I am gaining momentum in my business accomplishing way more in less time; something I had convinced myself previously was possible. I now had balance and enough time to get everything done that needed to be.

The difference between then and now lies in that I no longer hold the expectations that I have for myself over my head. Whether I achieve what was on the list for the day or not, I commit it to prayer and only fulfill what God has asked me to do and He has managed daily to come through with the rest. This doesn’t mean that everything is done according to my way or plan, but He is showing me how He is faithful with our household income, our time, and the more trust I place in Him the more rest and peace I have knowing that not only is He protecting our family, but He is working in our lives and preparing us for His purposes and promises for our lives. I find myself no longer struggling to control and fix everything, I am finally living in a state of tranquility and rest. My strength is His strength and is daily renewed and replenished. I look forward to waking up now and seeing how He moves the heavens and earth not in my past, not my future, but in my today. I am now living a life truly of TODAY! It feels good to be alive and for Him to purpose my plans to use me for a great calling.

I am so grateful and honored to have shared this message with you. The key to living is learning how to live in rest. IF you would like to affirm this with biblical scripture, read Psalm 91. Had I not gone through this and encountered Christ in this way, I would never have shared this with you. What I can tell you is addiction is real. Escape through work is real. For many you think you enjoy it only because it is all you really know. When is the last time you did something you really wanted to do besides work? What would you like to do more of if you weren’t working? Do you have a vision or a dream that you would like to achieve? When is the last time you took steps towards what your heart is calling you to do? If you yearn for something more, if you want to learn how to live again, I am living proof that it is possible and it can happen. You don’t have to be in bondage or a slave to your work. When you seek, knock, and ask God to show you what needs to change in you and you are willing to put your thoughts and ideas aside, God will work. Believe me, be careful what you ask for, He will start to deal with you in this area.

Just remember one thing, you may not like His answer as to what needs to change in your life. Remember though, change is worth it especially when you welcome it and embrace it. A refiner’s fire is never comfortable and the growing pains may seem a bit uncomfortable. These new changes, however, are to give you new and fresh perspective. When you begin to clocksurrender your plans, life, ideas for His, you will begin to see and think more clearly because you are hearing and seeing through His senses. He is drawing you more and more into Him. The more of a wreck and broken you are, the greater your calling and purpose. I can tell you friends, you certainly are not called to bondage, you are called to a life of FREEDOM. He has more for you out there, but you have to be willing to ride on Him…seek refuge in Him, His strength, His ways. When you can no longer do it and you fall to your knees, you know you have begun the journey of Him carrying you. You don’t have to carry the burden alone. In fact, you are not designed to carry your life period. Let God carry your life, that is His job. Let God be God. You be you. Let Him do a perfect work in you and you will see how your life transforms, but only if you trust Him and lean on His understanding. I believe in you friend, no mess is too great for Him to bring greatness out of you!

Wanting to go deeper??  Stay tuned for next week!!!

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